adoption option: christianity was made for mothers

i was planning today to write more about our paperwork and how things are progressing with the adoption process, but i find  myself feverishly typing this post instead. i have been so emotional lately regarding our adoption, and i want to document all of my feelings because…it helps me sort through it.

i know i’m not pregnant. i know that. however, lately, i find myself, for all intents and purposes, feeling emotionally pregnant. i find myself thinking about the baby constantly, and thus thinking of myself as a mother constantly too. everything, and i mean everything makes me tear up.. a song on the radio, blog posts of adoptive mothers, birth mom stories, those sarah mclachlan pet commercials, any song with minor chord progression……it kinda sucks, truthfully! it’s like i feel a rush of excitement, nervousness, anxiety, impatience, and sheer terror all at the same time and my only response lately is to cry about it! 

quite honestly though, i think i have been having a lot of fear. it’s very very real now that we could have a baby soon, and i am all of a sudden having an overwhelming feeling of “what if i can’t do this…” i’m sure all mothers feel this way at some point..(if not, lie to me, people. i’m fragile..)  but it’s really scary to feel this way! here are a list of my current fears, in no particular order:

*what if they cry and i don’t know what to do

*what if they are sick i don’t realize it

*what if they choke and i can’t help them

*what if i forget to buckle them in the car seat

*what if they don’t like me

*what if they think i’m a bad mom

*what if i can’t handle this

i have lots of mommy friends and we have been having lots of conversations lately about the nearness of me and motherhood.  i find myself clinging to every word they speak. searching each conversation for bits of knowledge and advice. anything i can cling to and take into mommyhood with me. i think because we have waited so long (like, almost a decade!) to have kids, we have been mentally and emotionally preparing for this day for a long time. it’s given us a loooooong time to think about what kinds of parents we will be and want to be, and we are very aware of how hard some days can be for parents. the advice has been great, but its interesting: the overwhelming theme from every parent we have spoken to has been 1) you won’t do everything right and 2) you will never be enough for your child

and this is why i am fairly confident that Christianity was made for mothers (and fathers, i suppose :) ).  i will never be everything my child needs. i can’t be. the same way paul can’t be everything i need, or my parents, my career, or even my children. the only thing that can absolutely fill the “everything” hole, is my faith. and because of this, i find myself clinging to Jesus with both fists.

the crazy thing is, i already have this desperation for my child to feel this way too. to have a desire to hold so tightly to their faith and never let go. i want to make sure i teach them and train them and show them how to love Jesus. however,  i understand better now why my parents took us to church each sunday. why they modeled a Godly life, and why they made Jesus so important. yes, they wanted us to have a deep faith, but i realize now their passion was also an overflow of their necessity.  i want to foster a deep faith out of love and thankfulness, of course, but also, i am realizing even now, there is no better, and really no other, option as a parent, than to cling to Jesus. and i am so grateful for that.

so there it is. i clearly don’t know everything on anything so any sage advice and/or wisdom is always appreciated.

house update: DIY pallet wall

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE! plergs are spending the night in our jammies, blogging, reading, eating crab legs with relatives, and going to bed early,  partying like it’s 1999–naturally.

one of our new years resolutions is to *finally* get our house in order. and yes, i know we have only lived in our house for a month now, but my OCD is killing me. I CAN’T LIVE LIKE THIS! everything has a place, and i just know it’s itching to get to its proper spot.

so in the spirit of getting crap done, pauly decided to undertake one of our larger projects this weekend and put up our pallet wall in the loft! *sidenote: i hence forth promise to post more pictures of our house in 2014*

here’s how we did it! i think it looks pretty sweet and will only get better looking as we finish the room with bookshelves, pictures, throws, and lamps.

three cheers to pauly!

and happy new year everyone! may all of your wildest dreams come true.

so here's how we started: my brother in law hooked us up with some pallets from his office. honestly, don't pay for pallets. so many businesses have them and don't need them... also, we didn't treat or stain any of our boards. we picked pallets of differing coloring to add variety

so here’s how we started: my brother in law hooked us up with some pallets from his office. honestly, don’t pay for pallets. so many businesses have them and don’t need them… also, we didn’t treat or stain any of our boards. we picked pallets of differing coloring to add variety

then pauly used a 'sawzall' saw to take the pallets apart. tip: saw right through the nails. DON'T waste time prying them apart to take the nails out. you can cut right through them and then pound down any sharp edges.

then pauly used a ‘sawzall’ saw to take the pallets apart. tip: saw right through the nails. DON’T waste time prying them apart to take the nails out. you can cut right through them and then pound down any sharp edges.

next, we laid out the pieces to see how we wanted to arrange them on the wall

next, we laid out the pieces to see how we wanted to arrange them on the wall

since we were mounting our tv on this pallet wall, pauly made a cardboard mock-up so we could place it perfectly on the wall space and find what would be the center of the pallet wall

since we were mounting our tv on this pallet wall, pauly made a cardboard mock-up so we could place it perfectly on the wall space and find what would be the center of the pallet wall

after finding the studs, we nailed (with an air nailer) the first two boards, starting in what we figured out would be the center of the pallet wall. this way we could add to the top and bottom and make the wall as big or little as we wanted. tip: USE AN AIR NAILER i can't even being to imagine pounding this puppy up nail by nail.

after finding the studs, we nailed (with an air nailer) the first two boards, starting in what we figured out would be the center of the pallet wall. this way we could add to the top and bottom and make the wall as big or little as we wanted. tip: USE AN AIR NAILER i can’t even being to imagine pounding this puppy up nail by nail.

the finished pallet wall! we wanted to make ours a frame for the tv, so from here pauly drilled holes in the wall and pallet wall to hide the cords for the tv.

the finished pallet wall! we wanted to make ours a frame for the tv, so from here pauly drilled holes in the wall and pallet wall to hide the cords for the tv.

ta-da! i think it turned out so well and i can't wait to add more to the room to finish it up!

ta-da! i think it turned out so well and i can’t wait to add more to the room to finish it up!

 

life changer thursday: evan’s story

today’s installment of ‘life changer thursday’ will come as no surprise to those of you who follow me on facebook and instagram.. today at 12:52pm my very first nephew (and our family’s very first grand baby) was born! (read: AHHHHHHHHHH! AH! AH! AH! YES! AHHHHHHHHH!)

evan thomas was born on this cold cold COLD december day to my ‘little’ sister emma, and her husband dan. baby and mom are doing great, and we couldn’t have asked for a more perfect boy. my life has been irrevocably, unconditionally, indescribably, all consumingly, changed. thank. you. Lord.

holding him in my arms for the first time today was the most surreal, wonderful experience ever….and my first thought was oh my gosh! this world is filled with weirdos and perverts! we have to move to an island! no one is allowed to hold him but me! i hate everyone else!  i mean…’man. i love you so much! i can’t believe you are finally here!’

it’s been a long day but i think we will all go to bed and sleep extra soundly tonight, dreaming of our little christmas present….well….at least we will. dan and emma may be in for a longer night…….

so, without further ado, i would like to introduce to you the new love of my life…..my little evan:

evanhat

have you EVER seen anything cuter! no. no you haven’t. it’s like he’s showing us his muscles! our big strong boy!

we love you e-man!!

we love you e-man!!

there aren't words to describe my love. literally. they need to invent new words.

there aren’t words to describe my love. literally. they need to invent new words.

evan loves grandpa stevie! and look at that blonde hair!

evan loves grandpa stevie! and look at that blonde hair!

grandma suzie during ev's first bath! these guys are best buds already.

grandma suzie during ev’s first bath! these guys are best buds already.

the most perfect little family that there ever was.

the most perfect little family that there ever was.

happy birthday to you!

happy birthday to you!

happy birthday, my dear evan!

happy birthday to you!

i love you boy! xoxoxox auntie

a weekend away

are you guys not totally entertained by the number of posts this last week??! i am!! i’m trying to make more of an effort to keep up with this little baby. we’ll see how long it lasts…

this last weekend we had the awesome privilege to stay at a cabin in northern MN with our small group (minus one family, but they had JUST had a baby, so i guess we will forgive them for not coming. this time.) we stay here a few times a year, and each time it is so fun and relaxing. we eat delish food, have awesome conversation, play outside, watch movies, and unplug from life for a few days. it. was. perfection.

thank you morrow’s the letting us use your beautiful home! we look forward to it each year and always have the best time!

cuddling with cute kiddos. a great start to any weekend trip.

cuddling with cute kiddos. a great start to any weekend trip.

cheers to our group!

cheers to our group!

yes. the cabin has pinball machine. and yes. there is an honest-to-goodness plaque displaying proudly the current high scorers.

yes. the cabin has pinball machine. and yes. there is an honest-to-goodness plaque displaying proudly the current high scorers.

and yes. the 'big boys' play it more than the little boys. it's really serious. like...funny how serious it is to them.

and yes. the ‘big boys’ play it more than the little boys. it’s really serious. no no. like...funny a little ridiculous how serious it is to them.

and they have foosball! i told you..best place ever.

and they have foosball! i told you..best place ever.

lovely girls. missing one. also: i didn't shower. ( i feel the need, in life, to always acknowledge things i feel self-conscious about. like "yes. i know i look like i didn't shower." i just don't want anyone ever thinking.."oooo.. does she know she looks like she didn't shower?" ya know??

lovely girls. missing one. also: i didn’t shower. ( i feel the need, in life, to always acknowledge things i feel self-conscious about. like “yes. i know i look like i didn’t shower.” i just don’t want anyone ever thinking..”oooo.. does she know she looks like she didn’t shower?” yes. i know.

such a great weekend! now back to the grind. :) happy hump day!

Mitch-ee-gen

this last weekend we took a trip with our friends cory and summer to the U.P. in michigan to visit her family/the boys had a golf extravaganza. i mean that completely literally too…they golfed 36 holes a day for 3 straight days. we didn’t see them at all. but they had fun, so that’s all that matters :)

while the boys were away, summer, her sisters, mom, brother, and all the little kiddos (her sister has 3 kids and one on the way! friday!!) hung out at the house, cooked food (well, they cooked. i watched. and ate….it rocked.), and spent time outdoors. it. was. SO. relaxing and i miss them all already.

here are a few pics from our weekend….

also, this next weekend we are headed to fargo for memorial day and my cousin david’s graduation! whoop! lots more pics coming soon!!

so, thank you vukes for an AMAZING time! we love you guys so much! come and visit us soon!!

 

we are ready! 10 hour trip...here we go!! the babies did AMAZING though!

we are ready! 10 hour trip…here we go!! the babies did AMAZING though!

sleepy baby....

sleepy baby….

on the road....total blowout....too mosquito-y to get out of the car...this is what you do...mother of the year... (the car was not moving..i feel like i need to say that.. :) )

on the road….total blowout….too mosquito-y to get out of the car…this is what you do…mother of the year… (the car was not moving..i feel like i need to say that.. :) )

cory printed out a full itinerary for their golf weekend. it's very serious business! paul said these days he got to golf felt like christmas morning!

cory printed out a full itinerary for their golf weekend. it’s very serious business! paul said these days he got to golf felt like christmas morning!

how tyson slept for part of the 10 hour trip!

how tyson slept for part of the 10 hour trip!

ready to go! 'i ready, yaya!' (that's what he calls me, yaya..i love it.)

ready to go! ‘i ready, yaya!’ (that’s what he calls me, yaya..i love it.)

 

ashur and cousin isla eating lunch! they are SUCH GOOD buddies. it's adorable.

ashur and cousin isla eating lunch! they are SUCH GOOD buddies. it’s adorable.

summer's parents have the best set up for grand kids: HUGE yard, sheep, cats, chickens, sandbox, playhouse, swingset, climbing wall. it's amazing. here is our little buddy playing on the 'pirate ship' swingset. LAND HO!

summer’s parents have the best set up for grand kids: HUGE yard, sheep, cats, chickens, sandbox, playhouse, swingset, climbing wall. it’s amazing. here is our little buddy playing on the ‘pirate ship’ swingset. LAND HO!

sweet little sofia and me climbing her 'thinking tree'

sweet little sofia and me climbing her ‘thinking tree’

sof in her 'thinking tree.' she said she likes to climb up here and look all around and think about the world. how adorable is that?!

sof in her ‘thinking tree.’ she said she likes to climb up here and look all around and think about the world. how adorable is that?!

ashur stole my phone and i wound up with 153 pics of this. had to post just one

ashur stole my phone and i wound up with 153 pics of this. had to post just one

summ's parents are incredible hosts. amazing meals prepared each day for us...SUPER healthy too...here is pauly with an all fruit smoothie. amazing.

summ’s parents are incredible hosts. they made amazing meals for us each day…..SUPER healthy too…here is pauly with an all fruit smoothie. amazing.

trying to get a couple cute ones before me steals my phone for the afternoon...

trying to get a couple cute ones before he steals my phone for the afternoon…

one more!

one more!

so...yes...they have sheep..and they decided to let them run loose for a bit one afternoon. listen: i am from the city. this.....this scared the crap out of me....but the kids had fun, so that's all that matters....lol

so…yes…they have sheep..and they decided to let them run loose for a bit one afternoon. listen: i am from the city. this…..this scared the crap out of me….but the kids had fun, so that’s all that matters….lol

 

flowers for sale!

summer’s niece sofia. flowers for sale!

 

summer's niece, sofia, picked these 'flowers' for me. she was selling them to us all. these puppies only cost me a cool $12...in pretend money, please.

 sofia, picked these ‘flowers’ for me. she was selling them to us all. these puppies only cost me a cool $12…in pretend money, please.

 

sofia with 'mulan' hair. hahah! and 3D glasses...like a rockstar..

sofia with ‘mulan’ hair. hahah! and 3D glasses…like a rockstar.. also, summer’s brother, tyler. 

 

part of their backyard....we laid out one day here...it was SO peaceful...and i burned...whoops!

part of their backyard….we laid out one day here…it was SO peaceful…and i burned…whoops!

some of the courses where they golfed. i couldn't tell you anything about this other than: hey. here's a part of a golf course.

part of a course where they golfed. i couldn’t tell you anything about this other than: hey. here’s part of a golf course.

pauly's favorite course they golfed at!

pauly’s favorite course they golfed at!

summer's dad tony, paul, and cory on the course!

summer’s dad tony, paul, and cory on the course!

hey. here is another shot of a golf course.

hey. here is another shot of a golf course.

i don't know ANYone who loves golf as much as these two..

i don’t know ANYone who loves golf as much as these two..

 

life according to fargo

here are some of the highlights from our trip to fargo last weekend! boom-shaka-laka.

 

we got to see sweet little austin! he is the nephew of our friends caleb and libby from small group. and man, he is ADORABLE.

we got to see sweet little austin! he is the nephew of our friends caleb and libby from small group. and man, he is ADORABLE.

speaking of cute babies: we also got to see our friends arika and cole and their ADORABLE baby gavin! he is so precious.

speaking of cute babies: we also got to see our friends arika and cole and their ADORABLE baby gavin! he is so precious.

pauly and gavin. buds.

pauly and gavin. buds.

me and some of my favorite people.

me and some of my favorite people.

coolest people ever. i just want to take as many pics with and of them as possible to prove i know cool kids. it makes me feel cooler.

coolest people ever. i just want to take as many pics with and of them as possible to prove i know cool kids. it makes me feel cooler.

so we were hanging at the mall and i tried on pauly's hat. see how it barely fits my head...then sissiebear tried it on.....
so we were hanging at the mall and i tried on pauly’s hat. see how it barely fits my bulbous head…then sissiebear tried it on…..

........hahahahahah! way too big for her normal person sized head!

……..hahahahahah! way too big for her normal person sized head!

bethany had these awesome looking sunglasses...until i tried them on....old, greasy, mom....

bethany had these awesome looking sunglasses…until i tried them on….old, greasy, mom….

cool, side braid, girl...

cool, side braid, girl…

awesome, young, hipster.

awesome, young, hipster.

 

rosie graduates!

this last weekend we traveled to fargo to visit family and celebrate mother’s day, as well as our aunt rosie graduating with her masters degree! it was so fun to be in fargo again..we hadn’t been since christmas! crazy…. and it was really special to be there to celebrate these moments with family. when we lived in AZ all we wanted was to be able to pop up to fargo and not miss these family gatherings. it means so much to us now to be able to attend, and we don’t take that for granted. we really want our families to be close, and for our (future!) children to know not only their grandparents well, but also their cousins, and aunts and uncles. thank you family for being so awesome! we love you!

and congratulations to rosie on her graduate degree in library and media sciences! it was a BRUTAL program to get through, but you are very inspiring the way you persevered through it all.

oh, and did i mention she helped plan TWO weddings during, and worked full time, and raised two kids–among many MANY other things!

we love you rosie! it was such a blessing to be there to support you like you have supported and blessed us so many times over!

here are the highlights!

the graduate program (and president of the college!) asked rosie to speak that the graduation. SHE. ROCKED. IT. her speech was so well written, spoken with clarity and humor, and kept everyone's attention. it was BY FAR the best speech that day. no lie.

the graduate program (and president of the college!) asked rosie to speak that the graduation. SHE. ROCKED. IT. her speech was so well written, spoken with clarity and humor, and kept everyone’s attention. it was BY FAR the best speech that day. no lie. not a dry eye by the end.

OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!! we are SO SO PROUD of all your hard work rosie!!

OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!! we are SO SO PROUD of all your hard work rosie!!

her name in the program! after her speech the president of the college said, "now that's what graduation is all about." we were all in tears by the end and could not be prouder!

her name in the program! after her speech the president of the college said, “now that’s what graduation is all about.” we were all in tears by the end and could not be prouder!

the graduate and her family. best. people. ever.

the graduate and her family. best. people. ever.

we love you rosie!! i love my family.

we love you rosie!! and. i love my family.

photo bombed. my cousin david is cooler than your cousin david. i guarantee it.

photo bombed. my cousin david is cooler than your cousin david. i guarantee it.

no grad party is complete until you have cake with an ungodly amount of sugar frosting.

no grad party is complete until you have cake with an ungodly amount of sugar frosting.

again. this kid. and his awesome sister (white shirt) and adorable gf hope (gray). they are so much cooler than i will ever hope to be.

again. this kid. and his awesome sister, my cousin bethany (white shirt) and adorable gf hope (gray). they are so much cooler than i will ever hope to be.

happy mother’s day!

i forgot to bring my computer to fargo to post new blergs…so….sorry mama! this is a day late!

i know we are all totally bombarded through facebook, twitter, and instagram, of everyone’s little notes and pictures to their moms…but really i think that is so great. each person has a special and unique connection with their mom, and such a strong sense of love and thankfulness that they want to share it with us all. i know when i have kids i will feel so blessed and honored by my kids if they do that for me. i hope my mom feels the same about this! i love you mom and i am so blessed by you everyday.

so…there are SO many reasons why i adore my mom, here are a few:

…..her dedication to her faith is unmatched. in EVERY instance she continually draws back into the Lord for perspective and guidance. she is true prayer warrior for her family and friends, and is continually showing us what it means to desire a deep relationship with Jesus

…she has a way of offering perspective without sounding pushy or nagging

….she truly has my best interest at heart so i know her advice is solid

…..she is beyond generous to us with time, money, prayer, advice, etc

….she is still the first person i call when i feel sick or sad. even from a distance she can make me feel so much better.

…..she has taught me what it really means to be sacrificial as a spouse and mother

my  mom is truly my best friend. i think i call her (no joke) at LEAST twice a day if not more. i just like to bounce things off her, catch up on our days, and generally hear her voice. it soothes me :)

so, thank you mom for showing me how to (someday) be a great mom too. i hope to raise my kids with as much love, grace and patience as you did for us. i love you so much!!

happy mother’s day to my  mom and to my mother-in-law, too! two of the best women i know! i hope yesterday was filled with extra love and gratitude for you…you do so much to take care of us all, even in adulthood! i love you both so much!

 

yesterday we celebrated my mom's retirement from her at home daycare. she has faithfully served our friends and family and loving helped raise so many of us! we all love you, suzie (and stevie-boy..he helps too!)

yesterday we celebrated my mom’s retirement from her at-home daycare. she has faithfully served our friends and family for almost 3 decades now, and helped lovingly raise so many of us! we all love you, suzie (and steve-y-boy..he helps too!)

this is why i love my job

yesterday we started working on mother’s day cards with our first grade kiddos.

adorable-ness ensued:

that Tim is one lucky dude. also i think he meant: love william...

that Tim is one lucky dude. also i think he meant: love william…

ahahah! i mean..there are just no words needed for how adorable this is...

ahahah! i mean..there are just no words needed for how adorable this is…

....you give me my coat. like a true mother.

….you give me my coat. like a true mother.

i think we lost direction for this little poem....so cute nonetheless!

i think we lost direction for this little poem….so cute nonetheless!

run. or. dye.

okay, so i agreed to do the g-d 5k (quote from ‘the office’, fyi)…a few months ago. it’s called run or dye and it’s a 5k where you get covered in paint while you run…just for fun :)

i thought it would be the motivation i needed to get me back into consistent running. guess what? it didn’t. if anything, i had so much anxiety leading up to running it, that every night when i thought, ‘you better go run’ i would get so anxious about how many days till the race or how few days i had trained so far, that my next thought would be “i need to go talk to some food about this.” cut to me hardly ever running.

SO. night before the race, our friends caleb and libby came to sleep over because, well, it’s fun to have sleepovers still, and the race was close to our house so we could just walk there in the morning. so we made a HUGE pasta dinner, to carbo load before the big day, and had fun watching episodes of ‘arrested development.’ (side note: omg. THIS SHOW. i cannot get enough of it!! it’s so funny and if you haven’t seen it, watch it as soon as freaking possible.)

well, this sounds fun, right? well it was, but i was also filled with anxiety about the next days running…. okay, so let’s also be clear: this a FUN run. not timed, no medals, just lots of people having fun, running a little, and covering each other in colored powder all the while. and music. and cookies. so just remember that as i tell you about my anxiety. (you can now have more sympathy for paul. i give you permission.)

okay….where was i…oh yeah…morning of the race. i had diarrhea twice. could have been the pasta…but i think it was anxiety. too much info…sorry… :) anyway we get to the race and….IT WAS SO FUN. while we waited to run, dj’s played fun dance music, people threw colored paint powder at each other and i calmed down when i saw how many kids were running this. also, there were like 1.5 billion people there (exaggeration), so i figured we wouldn’t be running that fast…. always the optimist….

we finally started our run and GUESS WHAT?! i RAN THE WHOLE TIME!! didn’t stop once. granted we were running at basically a fast walking pace (details, details…) but STILL. booyah!! i was proud. it was my first race ever people! and after they give you cookies! best. day. ever.

honestly, i HIGHLY recommend this race for people and families. i want to do it for sure again next year.  it’s just a super fun way to get out and live life in a new way. we all need a little of that in our lives…at least i know i do!

pre-race meal. pauly made AWESOME lemon garlic pasta with shrimp and caleb and libby brought AMAZING bread from cosetta's.

pre-race meal. pauly made AWESOME lemon garlic pasta with shrimp and caleb and libby brought AMAZING bread from cosetta’s.

pre-race. i HATE my glasses....i think i look like a middle age mom. i can already hear my kids saying "oh my gosh mom! you were such a NERD."

pre-race. i HATE my glasses….i think i look like a middle age mom. i can already hear my kids saying “oh my gosh mom! you were such a NERD.”

again, pre-race. post diarrhea.

again, pre-race. post diarrhea.

it was SO COLD the morning of the race, so we took the shuttle bus there.

it was SO COLD the morning of the race, so we took the shuttle bus there. they are so cute. 

you can't tell, but i'm GRIPPING paul's arm out of anxiety....for this fun run...with kids and the elderly....how terrifying.

you can’t tell, but i’m GRIPPING paul’s arm out of anxiety….for this fun run…with kids and the elderly….how terrifying.

pearly white before the race!
pearly white before the race!

the first powder starts to fly!

the first powder starts to fly!

we've been hit!

we’ve been hit!

i thought i would make my look a little sexier by adding head squeezing ear muffs. ya welcome.

i thought i would make my look a little sexier by adding head squeezing ear muffs. ya welcome.

not too messy...yet!

not too messy…yet!

WE DID IT!

post race! WE DID IT!

luecke finishers! thank you to these dear friends for pushing us to do something new and fun! just. love. them.
luecke finishers! thank you to these dear friends for pushing us to do something new and fun! just. love. them.

done! whoop!

done! whoop!

after the race the put on a little dance for all the finishers and everyone opened their dye packs at the same time. so cool!

after the race , there was music for all the finishers and everyone opened their dye packs at the same time. so cool!

 

the boys were having so much fun they decided to do cartwheels. like a boss.

the boys were having so much fun they decided to do cartwheels. like a boss.

cookies post race! best. idea. ever.

cookies post race! best. idea. ever.

love her.

love her.

luecke love. they are such great friends.

luecke love. they are such great friends.

ahhh yeah....covered!

ahhh yeah….covered!
lol this was where caleb was standing!

lol this was where caleb was standing!