sissiebear comes to visit

she’s here! she’s here! whoop! sissiebear and husband came to visit us today! and we were awesome hosts and did things like: run to target. fold laundry. clean out closets. we changed lightbulbs. best day ever. i’m sure they can’t wait to come back..

but really, it has been so so fun! we went to target! we folded laundry! we cleaned out closets! we changed lightbulbs! (see how great !! are??! tell paul!) i just love to do anything with my sissiebear. she just makes life so fun. and the boys got to go play hockey tonight. and emma and i worked out all of life’s issues and solved all the world problems while they were gone.and visited with our friend summer. it was so fun.

oh and we had breakfast for dinner! i made my favorite pancake recipe (ill post the recipe soon!!) and paul made eggs and cinnamon rolls (immaculate brand from target..so so good..) i love breakfast for dinner. almost as much as i love breakfast for breakfast..

pancakes with peanut butter and bananas. yup.

pancakes with peanut butter and bananas. yup.

a little target selfie. sissiebear is so cute.

a little target selfie. sissiebear is so cute.

i said "i'm going to take a pic of you guys" and this is what i got.

i said “i’m going to take a pic of you guys” and this is what i got.

paul changing lightbulbs. it's a little ridiculous.

paul changing lightbulbs. it’s a little ridiculous.

as redonkulously unflattering as this pic is (what, taking a pic of my A from below isn't a good angle? who knew??) i just needed to prove that i got up there.

as redonkulously unflattering as this pic is (what, taking a pic of my A from below isn’t a good angle? who knew??) i just needed to prove that i got up there.

pre hockey game. they were moving a little slower after the game...

pre hockey game. they were moving a little slower after the game…

 

cafe lurcat

on friday pauly and i decided to celebrate valentines day. it’s just so much better to go out not on the actual day. less crowded, less expensive, less cliche :)

we tried a new (to us) place called ‘cafe lurcat’. listen: it. was. amazing. AMAZING! delicious food, incredible service, awesome atmosphere. we will for sure be back. paul called this my ‘retox’. and it really was…..we shared: a small bowl of lobster bisque (with real chunks of lobster meat…drool..), a cheese, chive, and apple salad (life changing), and unreal french fries (finger licking..). that was to start… oops! we maaaaaaaaay have over done it..slightly… then we shared chilean sea bass with a maple crust, savory sea scallops served with black rice, and sauteed brussel sprouts that were more delicious with each bite.

okay we didn’t even get dessert. NO DESSERT! that’s how amazing all the food was! we were so full and happy we decided we will just have to come back for another visit and try some desserts…

it was really fun to just talk and laugh and be together. it really was. with paul’s work being so stressful lately, and me feeling a liiiiiittttle neglected…(not that i would ever say that to him…oh wait…) it was so so nice to just be together, stress free.

but i had to wear my stupid glasses. and my body was like “what the H??!!” because of all this amazing food…and i had some…’bathroom issues’ all day…. oh well. can’t win them all. :)

it took us like, oh, 900 takes to get this semi decent one...

it took us like, oh, 900 takes to get this semi decent one…

after dinner.so full.so happy.

after dinner.so full.so happy.

v day

actually i hate it when people call it v-day. it just sounds gross to me and i don’t know why…

anyway, valentines day was good. to be honest pauly and i were kinda fighting/not fighting just disagreeing on stuff in life….oh marriage….but it ended up being really great. i mention that just to always be honest about life. not every holiday is perfect even though i think it should be. we aren’t always lovey-dovey, even though i want us to be. i would rather be honest and have open communication in my marriage, even if that means it comes on a day that is supposed to be romantic and all about love. that’s true love i think. being willing to fight on v-day.

so after we were friends again :) we decided to stay in for valentines this year. i mean why fight the crowds, prices, etc for one day, when we could go out on friday and not have to suffer any of that?? so, we stayed in. ordered some chinese food (even though it was the last day of my detox, i had some stir fried veggies and rice), and watched ‘the perks of being a wallflower.” it was a great night.

school almost did me in for my last detox day though! we had cupcakes, we had sheet cake, we had cookies to decorate, we had chocolate, we had punch! it was in my face all day but i am proud to say i didn’t have one lick of it!! i can’t believe it. if i hadn’t lived it wouldn’t have believed it. it was really hard. honestly, this blog helped. i wanted to be able to honestly blog that i didn’t eat any of it, and that kept me motivated.

on a gushy note: my husband is the best. his deep and true love for me is astounding, really. he works so hard for us. loves me no matter how bitchy i get (a true feat!), and is such a great leader. paul really does motivate me to be a better person. if i give him….what should i call this…”constructive criticism”, he really listens to what i am saying and makes efforts to change/be better/work harder. i can’t say the same for myself that’s for sure. i get so defensive and try to justify my behavior, but not paul. he is always trying to learn and grow and i really really admire that. i love you pab! (side note: pab is short for pablo..paul is spanish).

happy v day everyone :)

hahahah! our first attempt at a selfie. the flash was incredible!

hahahah! our first attempt at a selfie. the flash was incredible!

pauly bought me wild hockey tickets for valentines! he knows how much i love a good hockey fight. nothing says happy v day like two guys beating the crap out of each other :)

pauly bought me wild hockey tickets for valentines! he knows how much i love a good hockey fight. nothing says happy v day like two guys beating the crap out of each other :)

enjoying some yummy chinese food.

enjoying some yummy chinese food.

truth: i had to make this black and white because my hair was so greasy by the end of the day!

truth: i had to make this black and white because my hair was so greasy by the end of the day!

he told me to stop 'fake smiling' so this is what he gets

he told me to stop ‘fake smiling’ so this is what he gets

obligatory kissy pic for valentines

obligatory kissy pic for valentines

paul said if we squish our faces together it would make a heart.... it doesn't.

paul said if we squish our faces together it would make a heart…. it doesn’t.

paul "justin beiber" berg.

paul “justin beiber” berg.

ms eleanor sent this little gem to our class today! everett timothy!! his shirt says "eligible bachelor" too cute!

ms eleanor sent this little gem to our class today! everett timothy!! his shirt says “eligible bachelor” too cute!

these almost did me in...i literally would walk past them on my desk, glare, point to them, and whisper shout "no!"

these almost did me in…i literally would walk past them on my desk, glare, point to them, and whisper shout “no!”

pauly makes the best pancakes so i got him a real cast iron pancake skillet

pauly makes the best pancakes so i got him a real cast iron pancake skillet

 

the detox ends!!

it’s over! it’s over! it’s over! i did it! i did it! i did it! really, i am more proud of myself for doing it, than i am thankful that it’s over. i would absolutely do it again (and probably will do it twice a year), and have learned a lot about my body in the process.

things i will take away from this, in no particular order:

1. i am capable of having self discipline when i set my mind to it

2. a week is a long and short time all at the same time

3. my body functions SO much better without caffeine.

4. no caffeine= me sleeping better than i have in as long as i can remember and waking up feeling refreshed

5. i can make super satisfying meals that fit into this detox and are delish ( i never once felt hungry during this except during the partial fasting days)

6. eating really cleanly like this helps me bm like a rockstar :)

so i am sure i could/will add to that list as things come to mind, but i think that’s a pretty great week all things considered. Oh! and i lost 3 pounds. not that that was the goal, but still i’m not complaining!

so. done and done! pauly says now i get to ‘retox’ from my ‘detox’….he is clearly missing the point on this one :)

last shake!

last shake!

detox day six and baby!

end of day 6! last day tomorrow of the detox! whoop!! it hasn’t been bad at all, but i will be glad to have it done. although i am glad it’s still going tomorrow for V day because it will keep me from eating a whole bunch of mindless crap all day at school…

i think that’s the thing i will take away from this the most. i don’t NEED any of the junk i eat, i just want it and give into that feeling whenever the F i want.. i want to go forward being more disciplined in that. i don’t need to put into my mouth whatever pops into my head at that moment (that’s what she said…)

also i feel really good being off caffeine and sugar…i am sleeping a LOT deeper at night and am not hitting all those caffeine lows either…i am giving up diet coke for Lent this year so i will continue on that part of this endeavor until Easter.  i have also developed a deep love for all things tea, so i am hoping that will keep starbucks at bay for a while too.

i have realized i am definitely a ‘cold turkey’ type of girl. (or whatever the vegetarian version of that saying would be… ba-dum-ching!) i don’t do well allowing myself to ‘limit my intake’ of junk food. i either eat it, or i don’t. growing up, my grandma used to drive around with the air conditioner on high or off, and we all joking called her ‘max-high mary.’ paul now calls me this.. in all areas of life..because that is how i operate. air on or off. i eat sugar or i don’t. i drink coffee or i don’t. i am happy. or sad…oh wait i think that’s called bipolar….

IN EVEN BIGGER NEWS: ms eleanor had her baby!!! a little boy, everett timothy, 8lbs 13 oz 21 inches long. eleanor was in 39 hours of natural labor with this little peanut! what a badass….i can’t wait to meet him! our kiddos at school will freak OUT tomorrow when i tell them, and i love that. they are so sweet.

also: paul’s meeting went really well today! and he got on a earlier/direct flight so he got home 7 hours early! what a treat!

amy’s interview went well too! i knew it would. she will find out about grad school in the next 3 weeks. :)

alright, great day overall :)

here’s just a little reminder to take with me as the detox ends :)

 

prayers

i want to be better at remembering specific things to pray for/people to pray for. today i am praying for two people: pauly and my friend amy.

paul has a super super important meeting today for his work. he is in north carolina right now working on it. the meeting is today (wed) at 10am..and he has been very stressed about it. paul is very capable and works really hard. he never lets anything bother him and is very rarely really stressed out by much..so when i saw how much this meeting was stressing him out, i knew this was a big deal. i am praying for peace him today, that he will know that this job or any earthly success is not where hope is found…and i’m praying that he does a killer job today, and it all goes better than he could have hoped. walk in weakness pauly, i love you so so much.

amy has a big interview with for a graduate school program today….she is ridiculously smart and capable and talented, but understandably nervous about this interview. if anyone deserves this though, it’s her…and i am praying that the interview committee will see that. praying that she will be calm and confident and know all the right things to say. love you lucy!

 

i just want to be able to look back in my posts someday when i am old and gray and remember what was happening in our life at the time, and what we were praying about. also, extra prayers today about these things are appreciated! thank you!

detox day 5

i’m tired of having the detox be my title, but it’s almost over!! whoop! tomorrow (thursday) is my last full day! i have to say though, i am feeling really good, overall.

yesterday (day 5, tuesday) was long and tiring…. i worked early again in the littlest kiddo classroom at school. it was so fun and cute, but man! i am not used to working so early! okay…it’s not that early, (8:30…don’t laugh..okay you can..) but it’s early for me! i felt really good until about 2:30, then i hit a little tired bump…you know, it was so so much better than my usual caffeine lows that hit during that time, and i felt so much better at the end of the day because i didn’t give in to sugar or caffeine. Lord knows i wanted to, though!

funny kid moment of my day yesterday: a little girl dressed in a firefighters outfit dragging/pushing/pulling a GIANT bin of baby dolls across the floor..

me: what are you doing??

little girl: (giant sigh while shaking her head) well..all these babies died in the fire.. had to yank them out. it was too late.

i know it’s totally morbid, but i found it hilarious. who thinks like this?? i was thinking to myself..oh man you are going to be one of those kids to lights fires just to watch stuff burn someday…..lol

okay on to day 6! almost done!

detox days 3 & 4

so i was going to blog yesterday but too much of nothing happened…and you know how when you are really busy you seem to get more stuff done, but when you do nothing and have tons of free time nothing seems to get done? the latter was me yesterday. we were supposed to serve dinner at the union gospel mission and go out to a birthday dinner with friends, but due to inclement weather we just stayed in and i got nothing done. well not nothing. we watched cocoon, dirty dancing, the wedding date, and knight and day. okay judge judy, we did not watch all of each of these! but most. let’s be honest. most. i had never seen coccon…it was hilarious to me. old people and aliens. nothing better.

okay so the last two days of detox have been really good. today i had to work an extra long day at work (11.5 hours!) and i was expecting to feel pretty exhausted…but guess what? i felt really good all day! i couldn’t believe how good i felt, and then i realized that it has been 6 days of no caffeine (even now i can’t believe i can say 6 days! spoken like a true addict i guess..). i think that has really made a difference. that and no sugar. i am not having the caffeine and sugar highs, but also not suffering those crashes either. i think that helped me tremendously today. so i have decided to continue to go without diet coke for lent too. i mean i do work at a catholic preschool after all :) so that means no diet coke until easter! God willing….

also, i am getting more and more used to the taste of these detox shakes. thank God! thursday is my last day of this, and i know i can do it!

last night paul and i made an amazing salad. here’s the link. it was so so good. we, of course, tweaked it a little bit and that will, of course, be going on my food blog, but this link has the original. seriously, this is a great alternative to coleslaw or similar salads, but without all the heavy dressings. i also whipped together some AMAZING pancakes. i don’t think i can eat them any other way now! oatmeal flour, vanilla, cinnamon, and coconut oil…oh man….i’ll post that sometime here too. and real maple syrup? umm. where have you been all my life??! aunt jemima has been lying to me…

school was fun today, too. i worked up stairs in the “tweety bird” room (ages 3-4). they are so cute. it was fun to see them play and interact with each other. i think little girls playing ‘mom’ is so funny. one little girl (3.5 yrs old) yelling across the room to her “daughter”: “Oh honey bunny, sweetie pie! mama needs to talk to you!” it was precious and hilarious.

here’s a pick from one of my 1st graders as well, just in case we needed a reminder of the importance of dogs in our lives. :)

happy monday!

 

i love that she writes like she talks, "you know...there is a puppy in every heart." so simple. so true.

i love that she writes like she talks, “you know…there is a puppy in every heart.” so simple. so true.

ugh best pancakes ever. be jealous.

ugh best pancakes ever. be jealous.

never going back.

never going back…and yes… this is taken from my couch…where i was eating…all day…(meaning: all day i was eating. and all day i was eating on my couch. yes to both.) 

 

 

detox day two, and other fun things

okay day two was not bad at all! it’s starting to feel really good to be off caffeine and sugar…who knew?! i’m sleeping a lot better at night–more soundly and deeper. the shake taste is….well i’m getting used to it. it’s fine. (said quickly and sharply).

yesterday was a really fun day. i walked at the mall with my friend (ms.) eleanor from school. still no baby but we tried our best to walk it out yesterday! then i came home, snuggled/napped with pauly on the couch while watching the food network. my favorite shows are: the barefoot contessa, the pioneer woman, and paula deen. my friends/family always ask me why i watch these shows, especially these three shows, where everything is coated in butter and bacon. i know full well there is nothing i can/will make. my answer: food porn. i know i will never have it, and i know it’s all terrible for me, but i can’t help myself. :) also, i am bummed that there aren’t any truly healthy cooking shows on the food network. and secretly i would love to host one…shhhh…so i watch these to see how they cook on camera….lol it’s like my version of singing in front of the mirror with a curling iron i guess…

anyway, after that we headed over to our friends cory and summer’s place to hang out, play settlers of catan (pauly won!), and eat amazing food. summer is amazing and made unbelievable quinoa/sauteed veggie stuffed mushrooms on a bed of kale, with a balsamic glaze…o.m.g. the picture is below and that recipe will be going on our food blog. it was so so good! the boys also played chess for hours…it’s so funny to me that boys can have a deep and meaningful friendship and really not speak to each other the entire time they are together…. ashur and i had some fun with my bubble gum..i’ll try to get a video of that posted.. and baby tyson was sleeping pretty much the whole time so, sorry bud..no pics of him…

it was a really great night, and now we are battening down the hatches for the supposed winter storm we are in for. i am earnestly and fervently praying for a snow day tomorrow… hopefully we can get out today.. we have fun stuff planned! serving dinner at the union gospel mission, and a birthday dinner out with our dear friends caleb and libby! happy birthday libb!!

 

our friend hayley gave us these sweatshirts from where she works, SAP. they are the most comfortable things ever and we live in them!

our friend hayley gave us these sweatshirts from where she works, SAP. they are the most comfortable things ever and we live in them!

the boys, bonding silently, over chess..

the boys, bonding silently, over chess..

big guy found his nose...and loved it!

big guy found his nose…and loved it!

we played this game for hours last night! ugh. he melts me.

we played this game for hours last night! ugh. he melts me.

ashur says to me "yaya look! i sleep!" it was so funny...all curled up in his toy drawer.

ashur says to me “yaya look! i sleep!” it was so funny…all curled up in his toy drawer.

this i could honestly eat every day. stuffed mushrooms? yes please.

this i could honestly eat every day. stuffed mushrooms? yes please.

i saw this on pinterest, and thought it was hilarious!!

i saw this on pinterest, and thought it was hilarious!!

over dramatic: the end of detox day 1

so after my little rant about the horrible-ness of my detox shake, i made my second one tonight…i made pauly try it to evoke some sympathy for what i was going through…and his response? “Meh. it’s not that bad, leah.” then i tried it again, and you know? it really wasn’t. i mean i won’t be missing it when it’s over, but it’s totally do able. so..once again…i was a tad bit over dramatic….so unlike me….

detox day one was okay…i was a little more tired than usual…but otherwise just fine. it says to fast the first two days, but i get really shaky when i don’t eat, so i munched on some sunflower seeds and strawberries mid afternoon to curb my cravings. i am making a couple more recipes for the upcoming week too, hopefully they will turn out.

i will say, i came home from work today and was really crabby…my body wanted to celebrate friday night with candy and starbucks…it was a little crazy to think how much my mood is affected by the food i eat…i wasn’t hungry, no headache…just a little tired and wanting a treat. i’m glad to be breaking that habit in my life, even if just for  a week :) i really am hoping this is the end of my diet coke addiction though….it needs to end…sigh….tear…

and tonight was really great. paul and i went to the grocery store to stock up on food for this weekend…we watched our favorite shows, suits and modern family, and i drank some yummy chai tea. so who knew, even without treats i still can have a good time.

alright! so i live to detox another day! whoop!